You spend 40+ hours a week , for 5-6 days. Rest on your 7th.
Even God rested on the 7th day when he created this world.
You need to rest on your 7th after living in yours too.

Sunday is my self love, self care days.
It’s also my most emotional day of the week.
Sunday is where I allow myself to feel the prior week
and prepare for the upcoming.

What does a self care day look like you to?

My dad tells me all the time how my generation can be so detached sometimes. But is that really a bad thing?

In my case, this month I felt the need of detaching from social media.
You may be perfect, but me on the other hand struggle with comparison.
I would scroll on social media and notice how everyone’s life is just...Perfect.
The perfect picture. The perfect relationship. The perfect kids. The perfect family. The perfect life.
Then I look at my own life and begin regretting.
Sulking.
Opening old wounds.

It felt like I was free falling in a pit of darkness.
I was mentally and emotionally draining myself with comparison.

I’m no therapist
(I should probably get one LOL),
but detachment always feels like the best medicine for me.

To me detachment is like unplugging a device for a while then plugging it back up to make it work again.
Or like a bow and arrow.
Detachment is like the bow being pulled backwards only to be shot forward to hit its mark.

I haven’t shot for my bullseye yet, nor have I plugged myself back in,
but this detachment season is giving me the space and time I need to
recover, reflect and restore.

My detachment season is for me to connect back with me and remember who I am, what I want, and work on where I’m going.

I know you this may not be for everyone,
but this is what works for me and I enjoy this season.

I have time to lay down and write these blogs.
(Sidenote: I just learned that I can post from my phone and this shit is lit LOL)
I have time to focus on school the way I want to.
I have time to work on my Audio Book for The Hidden Goddess With A Twisted Mind.
I have time to grow my career.
I have time to listen to God.

Shit, I know you’re perfect and I may be a little crazy but I feel most connected to me when I’m detached from outside voices.

I’m excited for what this detachment season will bring!
Moving forward,
it’s best to keep watch of this blog
and The Real Life Of Jo YouTube Channel.

They are the only places I’m allowing myself to post in this season
​ (mostly cause no body pay my ass attention right now so it feels easier to be vulnerable lol) but that’s another topic for another day.

It felt great to write tonight and I hope you’re being safe out here in these skreets! Until next time:

- Love, Jo

I remember you and who you use to be.
So loud and outspoken yet sweet with a sugar potency
Dancing with the ticks of time like "what is left of me".
But Yeah,
I remember you. 
I know
I see.

Your aging in reverse yet your spirit grows to different levels.
As if your a mountain bike that's missing both its pedals,
As if your in 1st place and waiting for the medal,
As if your voice echos yet you hear only trembles. 

I remember you being hugged up with solitude.
The emptiness in the room holds you with magnitude. 
Just lose that attitude,
the world aint mad atchu.

Your being that one light in a darkened corner. 
Your being the last flick like a Bic in some water. 

I wish you remembered you like I do. 
But your just a piece of a glass reflecting what I choose.

But Yeah....
I remember you. 

So I find myself really struggling with what to write about today lol.

Do I talk about my hectic week and how I am tired, overworked, and stressing the hell out?
Do I talk about my dating life and lack thereof?
Do I talk about the chaos happening in the world?
Do I share letters in my journal to show my growth? 
I'm lowkey really stuck on this today of Thankin Thursday!!

This stuckness on thinking about what to write makes me feel incapable. I'm starting to second guess my ability to make this blog and YouTube channel a thing. 
Do you know what that is like?
To want something so badly and the second things get tough,
you start slipping?
What are you doing when that happens??

What good would it do if I just closed my computer right now
and say "fuck it, better luck next week."
Then next week comes and you say the same thing.
Then months pass by and you've done nothing. 
I can't do that! (again lol)

Don't do that to yourself!

Wow here we go! Here is a topic,
"Just keep going".

There is always going to be someone counting on your downfall,
doubting your ability, and second guessing who you are:

AND IT SHOULDN'T BE YOU!

You need to be your number one fan,
you need to have faith inside of yourself
and when things get tough,
JUST KEEP GOING!

The world will disappoint you,
that's why its important for you not to disappoint yourself.

This blog post is probably not my best.
It probably won't be the worst either.

and Ima JUST KEEP GOING! lol

Anywhoo,
​Tomorrow Season 5 of The Real Life Of Jo starts tomorrow! 
I am sooo excited for this season cause
ya girl is coming out of her shell!!!

Whatever you choose to do this week, Just keep going! 

I've been living in Ohio for about a year now.
I spent that year adjusting to this new lifestyle of mine.
I have started my career in the medical field as a laboratory assistant (GO MICRO!) in a hospital. 
Can I talk about that for a minute?

I am SOOO in love with this job.
Like, I'm not a morning person by FAR
and this job really excites me to get up in the morning lol Granted, I do see some pretty gross shit. (Literally, shit).
But I am saving lives and having fun while doing it!
​ I may post a YouTube Video about that this season on the #RealLifeOfJo, who knows.

But anyway, I freaking love it. 

In addition to this new and awesome career change,
I met some really great people! Not just great people, but some amazingly motivating people. Because of the interactions and encounters I had with them is the reason why I am pushing so hard now.

I see that it can be done,
and it motivates me to get my shit done too!

For example, I am back in school! Can you believe that???
I haven't been in college since 2015. I already have a degree but it never felt like that was enough for me. When I moved to Ohio and landed this job in the lab, the fire was just ignited!
I am currently in school going for my Bachelor's in Medical Lab Science. I'M FINNA BE A WHOLE SCIENTIST!!
At least a lab one lol
I do one day would love to get into research,
BUT we are not in that chapter yet lol Let's finish this first.

I finally have the audio book for The Hidden Goddess With a Twisted Mind recorded!!! But the way this perfectionism and overthinking habits are set up, I don't feel like its up to par for you yet. Give me a bit more time and I may have some fire for you later. 

But first,
​You have to subscribe to the #RealLifeOfJo YouTube Channel!!!


Lastly, let's talk about this blog situation.
I haven't been posting like I wanted to.
Now that I am getting pretty comfortable in my routine,
it's time to get a schedule going!
Can we meet back here like once a week??

​Lets shoot for Thursdays!

ThinkingThursdays!?

I've had this website since 2017. It has changed from being a record label company, to a entertainment website, to blogs, to selling products, to having 90,000+ followers, to nothing and now we are here. Shit, I'm paying 15 bucks a month and 50 bucks a year to keep this damn thing! I never made a dime directly through this shit and I wonder why is it so hard for me to let this go. So today I'm starting with something new. Today is a new season, today I'm starting with me. 

The name "The Real Life Of Jo" sticks with me and perhaps I haven't been living up to the name lately. I actually hide myself which is furthest from being real. Is it from not being validated or wanted as a child? Was it years of being bullied and never fitting in? Is it because I constantly change myself to fit into society? It's probably a mixture all of those things. But I want change.  This season I want to be different. This season I want to be me.

The negative voices in my head are keep saying "You shouldn't post everything on the internet", "no one cares what you are going through", "no one wants to reads this shit". But in reality, this is all I have. The sounds of my fingers dancing on the keyboard is my favorite sound. Hearing me reread what I wrote are epic echos. Perhaps the thoughts singing in my head are yelling in someone else's and by chance this could help them.  Who knows. But one thing is for sure is I can't keep hiding. I can't keep holding everything in. I thought about doing something like this Blog on my YouTube channel, but the way my emotions are set up, it literally would just be me crying in front of a camera. Perhaps its's best to stay hidden on that note. 

When I wrote "The Hidden Goddess With A Twisted Mind" it was all written on paper and then I had to copy/type it in.  To me this is different because I'm letting my mind wonder. 

Will this blog make complete sense? Absolutely fucking not. 
Am I still going to post shit? Yep!
If not everyday, twice a week for sure. 

Welcome to The Real Life of Jo, what's real with you?